Akmar Anuar's Blog

Post 23

2012-01-24T11:27:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum!

i wrote about dreams in my previous post. and yesterday i remembered about some dreams from an American boy. He likes kpop so much and he has a bad family background i mean his parents are divorced and he is not staying with any of his parents, he stays alone at his old house.

he said that kpop makes his life becomes better and he plans to finish his school or degree and go to S.Korea to be an English teacher. sounds cool right? he is so determined to make such a plan. he knows what he wants and what he needs. he has plan everything. at least he knows what he wants to be in the future.

i hope i can be like him too. so this is why i wrote about my dreams after 10-20 years in my previous post keke.

Post 22

2012-01-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

dunia internet mulai kucar-kacir since Megaupload dah di-shutdown operasinya. but it does affect me at all because i cant use MU at the first place, i only depend on Mediafire and 4shared. but now, all of sudden, they want to shutdown Mediafire too! urgh!

what can i do if they take away my precious MF? i really need MF a lot! for my soshi stuff of course! haiz. idk what to do in the future. i hope they wont take away MF from me and others. but for now, idk what to download from MF. i just have to download some soshi pics right now. hmmm.

headache and heartache.

Post 21

2012-01-23T01:11:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum!

sesi kaunseling sekali lagi. sekarang ni pasal plan 10 or 20 tahun akan datang.

dear kama, i hope after 10 years, you already have a husband and a few kid keke. i also hope you are happy with your work. i think i can see as a professional pharmacist at a hospital or at a retail pharmacy either the pharmacy is own by yourself or you work with another superb pharmacist.

i also hope in the next 10 years, you are happy with your family, i mean with you parents, sibling and your own family [husband and kids]. i also hope you are happy with your life and you are proud with yourself.

i hope in the next 10 years, i can send my parents to Haji or vacation. they are the best parents i ever had and i love them so much. i hope i can make them to feel proud and happy with me.

i also hope your husband can lead you to success and happiness dunia akhirat and i hope your children are anak2 yang soleh dan solehah plus with genius brain.

hoping to have your own house and your own car [plus your husband car] are not impossible right? insya-Allah, i hope i can manage to own my own house and car and i hope my husband and i are someone who are success with our own career which can lead to a very family economy so we can raise our marriage as well as our kids without any problems due to money.

for the next 20 years, i hope i can have my son or daughter in law and my own grandchildren keke. i also hope my husband and i can go to Mekah to perform our Haji together with our children. and i also hope my husband and i are capable to travel to another countries such Japan, Korea, UK or New Zealand as our 1000th honeymoon or as 1000th family trip? keke. i hope so, amin amin amin.

but i know to have such a wonderful hope and wishes, i have to be a good person so i can have a good husband and both of us can have and raise anak2 yang soleh dan solehah. i also hope i can be a successful pharmacist and i hope my husband can do well in his career.

wow, to write this future plan are exciting enough. i am happy to write this kind of hope and i hope God can fulfill my wishes amin amin amin.

Post 20

2012-01-18T19:53:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

tulis post ni sebab tadi tengok kaunseling seorang kaunselor ni untuk remaja2 yang bermasalah. haip, bukan aku remaja bermasalah tu. aku tukang tengok je xD

2 soalan penting dari kaunselor tu, "what is the saddest thing happened in your life that you want to forget?" + "the deepest scar inside your heart?"

so untuk soalan kedua tu; aku rasa aku sangat sedih bila tak dapat straight A's untuk SPM aku. aku buat mak ayah kecewa dan sedih. lepas tu masa matrix pon pointer aku tak 4flat, 3.33 je. disebabkan 2 peristiwa tu, aku rasa aku kena tebus balik. jadi alhamdulillah Tuhan bagi aku peluang untuk tebus balik bila aku dapat buat Pharmacy degree. aku pon dapat Dean's List 2 kali. sekarang ni pon aku da graduate dan dah terima sijil dari Pharmacy Board. tunggu nak kerja as a PRP je. lagi lah aku nak buat mak ayah bangga dengan aku. 'scar' tu makin lama makin pulih so aku harap bila aku da jadi PRP and FRP nanti, scar tu terus hilang. aku nak jadi anak yang baik untuk mak ayah aku.

soalan pertama pulak; aku rasa pasal friendship. banyak benda sedih aku nak lupakan. tak tahulah kenapa, aku rasa kawan2 tu sangat penting untuk aku tapi sekarang tak lagi kot. sebab tak semua kawan2 aku assume aku as an important friend to them. they seek you when they are bored, they search for you when they need help. sampai hari ni lah jadi camtuh. i just need a friend yang hari2 aku boleh borak2, bebel2 hahaha. memang ade je kawan2 macam tu untuk aku tapi tak rapat. maybe betul lah cakap kakngah, jangan rapat sangat dengan kawan2, nanti mudah terasa. esp aku ni yang cepat terase hehe. kadang2 rasa rindu tu datang tapi aku cuma senyum jelah. memori best tu memang aku takkan lupa tapi aku tak nak rapat or lebih tepat aku kena menjarakkan diri dari mereka sebab aku tak nak rasa sedih lagi.

so untuk dua2 soalan tu, memang aku ada jalan penyelesaiannya cuma masih dalam proses lagi hehe.

Post 19

2012-01-17T14:37:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum!

yo, wassup yo!

hahaha tengah bosan so tulis blog. banyak benda nak tulis kebelakangan ni tapi simpan dalam hati lalalala.

i have one small project which it is started since yesterday. well, i only can see the result after a week maybe? or a month?! :O noooooo hahaha but for the sake of my health, so i have to proceed, at least for a week xD

hmmm my parents are discussing about my future, well honestly i am so nervous about it xD we have to shop shop shop for everything! :D

oh okay baik solat zuhur dulu, bye! :D

Post 18

2012-01-10T13:46:00.001+08:00

Post 17

2012-01-10T13:11:00.002+08:00

do you have the feeling, when.............

you have a very long holiday after you finished your degree, and you are happy about it

you are bored with your long holiday and you want to go work as soon as possible

you get the email from SPA that they will arrange your hospital posting soon and suddenly you realized you dont want to go work!

you want to spend your holiday a little bit longer because you are getting used to do so many things that you cant do when you were a Degree student

you want to extend your holiday although it is not possible

you want to do nothing again

you dont want to go to work

you want your holiday to be longer because you want to go to Japan this March

I WANT TO STAY AT HOME WITH MY PARENTS! I DONT WANT TO GO TO WORK! I AM NOT READY FOR WORK YET! =)) !!

and i am crazy when im writing this post :))

Post 16

2012-01-07T17:54:00.001+08:00

Everytime i watch this anime, i feel very good.

i miss my old-self as an anime-geek! xD

Post 15

2012-01-03T01:44:00.003+08:00

i dont know if i had chosen the wrong options for the past 2 months. i think i did'nt but now im regretting about those options everyday.

but if i still live with the old options, the options will be the same for me. those friends were abandoning me at that time actually.

whatever it is, i try to make myself happy without them. sometimes i can make myself happy but sometimes i cant.

but only Allah can give me eternal happiness. not those friends.

Post 14

2011-12-31T13:29:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum.

tetibe 2 hari tak update blog sebab tak tau nak bebel apa. takde mood nak tulis apa2. hari ni baru ada mood -_-

alright, last Thursday, alhamdulillah i have received my certificate from Pharmacy Board so right now i am officialy a Registered Pharmacist of Malaysia. but then, im a jobless Registered Pharmacist since i have no posting place to go as SPA and Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia dont send me any letter about my hospital posting. so im still jobless basically keke.

hmmm but there are some of my friends still dont get the certificate you know and maybe that's the reason i dont want to talk endlessly about the certificate. sigh...i hope they will get the certificate after New Year holidays are over..amin...

hmmm i think all of my family members will gather at this house today except my japan sister of course keke..i want to play with imran! i miss him! yosh!

actually i have nothing to do right now? all my cats are sleeping outside the house. hmmm. and right now im listening to SSF radio again. the dj is very funny keke.

tonight im going to be very very busy because i have 2 events at the same time :D but i dont think i can stream for both of the events if my internet connection is bad. keke

oh, speaking about money. i dont care about money at the moment. although i want to buy so many things but then i realized those things are not necessarily i need..i mean, i will waste a lot of money if i want to buy those. because eventually, my other friends can share those things with me so i dont have to buy them anymore. so i am grateful i have so many friends that are so nice and love to share their belongings :D so i think i have everything that i want right now :D cool!

ok lah, nothing to write anymore :D

Post 13

2011-12-28T17:13:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum

aku tak tau nak merepek ape kat sini. aku tengah mengantuk ni. tak boleh tidur petang2 bak kata kawan2. so kene la merepek untuk elakkan perasaan mengantuk berlipat-ganda kat badan nih.

alright, as i mentioned earlier in my previous 2 posts, 2 of my degree friends have received their certificate from Pharmacy Board. so they are officially Registered Pharmacist of Malaysia right now. so when will be my turn to get the cert? this week? next week? i dont care about time but i hope i will get the cert. because i've been waiting for it like almost 9 months? hahaha.

so i think when i get the cert, i have to prepare everything. i have to get a new spec because i never change this spec since.......i dont remember T_T 4 years ago? hahaha

then i have to get a new white coat = the doctor's white coat. mine one is from matrix and i dont think i want to wear the matrix's white coat for my hospital posting. it looks funny kekeke

then i have to shop for my stationery stuff. pen, books, files, A4 paper...what else? omg O.o

hmmmmmmm but the most important thing is i have to get myself ready for the hospital posting. i dont think i still remember what i have learnt for the past 5 years O.o. oh man, i should start my revision asap. but i am so lazy right omg :O

weh kejap, sakit pinggang lak tulis post nih. macam nak baring2. oklah, puas dah bebel dan luahkan rase kecuakan hehehehe...salam!

Post 12

2011-12-28T16:51:00.002+08:00

one sydrome of menses = tired = you feel like you want to sleep the whole day? :O

Post 11

2011-12-28T11:39:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum! :D

bangun2 je untuk bekerja, ade kawan2 bagi hadiah :D terima kasih sebab mendermakan hadiah tersebut disebabkan saya tidak berkemampuan membeli barang2 tersebut hihihihi :P they really love to share!

good mood hari ni tanpa sebab, boleh tak? semalam tidur 14 jam kot. tak tau la nape badan letih gila. banyak fikir kot. hehe. tapi yang bangun2 good mood, ok la tu kan? :D

ok lah, back to work ;)

P/s: OMG LARRY DAN HEMA DA DAPAT CERTIFICATE DARI PHARMACY BOARD! I WILL GET IT LATER! :D

Post 10

2011-12-27T11:23:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum.

hari ini adalah hari yang lebih ceria dari semalam, aku doakan...amin!

so new year da dekat, azam baru macam mana? LOL i dont think you have to create AZAM BARU everytime new year is coming. i think we should create AZAM BARU everyday so we will be a better person each day.

everyday, i will try to be a better daughter to my parents and a better person to myself. and yes, i want to be a better Muslim for God ^^ im still trying.

God always try to pull me back when im not close to Him. i dont want to get lost without His guidance....amin!

God, i want to be with you forever...pelase dont leave me alone. i know You wont because i know You love me more than anyone else in this world :D and i try not to forget you every single second of my life, i promise! i want to be a good Muslim for You! amin!

P/s: nak jadi seorang yang penyabar setiap hari sebab kerja aku sekarang ni selalu menggugat kesabaran aku :D sabar adalah sebahagian daripada iman! i should remind myself about that hehe.

Post 9

2011-12-26T18:56:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum.

tergerak hati nak tulis apa yang aku dah capai sepanjang 2011 ni lepas baca blog amir hazwan. okay here we go:

2011 is a tough year for me as a final year pharmacy degree student. you add with = a lot of classes + assignments + quizzes + exams + a very big research project + hospital attachment = i have grown to be stronger physically and mentally [i hope so].

i cried a lot sometimes because i cannot bear with the hectic schedules with less hour of sleep. i cannot imagine how i can struggle in those painful period. i am proud of myself.
finally i have graduated from Bachelor of Pharmacy with Honour. alhamdulillah.
went to SPA interview but until now, no answer from SPA and KMM. i am no pharmacist so dont call me a pharmacist LOL
actually im having a part time job which i have to provide info for other people and i do it for free. well, i learn a lot and i hope this job can improve my soft skills. i really do hope so. and i guess this job also makes me to use English 24/7. so i hope my English is improving. and from this job, i have to learn to work as a team although it is not an easy task because sometimes i cannot tolerate with some of them but then later i learn not to be so stubborn LOL. well every people has their own way so i guess i have to bear with it.
i guess in 2011, i learn about friendship. and i think i dont trust any good friendship or maybe i learn to know that i am not a good friend to anyone so this is the reason i dont have any close friends right now. i think i prefer to stay with my family. i am happy in that way for right now. i dont know, maybe when i started to be a pharmacist after i get my hospital posting, i will find a good friend, i mean a loyal friend who can always support and comfort me.
and in 2011, i guess i learn about relationship. i think i prefer islamic relationship rather than western relationship. you date with that guy and be so lovey-dovey with him 24/7 and end up he is not your husband. if that guy really loves you, he will meet your parents and ask for their blessing and he will plan for your marriage. if he does not, it means he just want to play around with you. i dont know, i have met with so many couples and most of them are in islamic relationship. they are the most lovely couple i have ever met esp alang dan kak sabrina ^^
in 2011, i have 1 baby nephew = Imran Haikal and 1 sister in-law = kak sabrina. they both are so lovely. i am happy my family is getting bigger this year :D to tell you the truth, kak sabrina is a very good listener and i think maybe alang loves her because of that quality :D
in 2011, i have read so many bad news about my friends. their parents are suffering from cancer + met with bad accidents + coma. and my friend's house got burned before hari raya. and i also found out a friend of mine is suffering from cancer. and lastly, my friend yang beberape bulan lagi je nak kahwin, tunang dia meninggal dunia sebab accident. i feel sorry for her until now :( but then, they are totally strong to face those problems and they manage to handle their problems in a good way. i pray that God will bless their life dunia akhirat. from them, i learn to be more grateful with my life.

i dont know what else to write so i think i should end this post with assalamualaikum and may God bless you!

Post 8

2011-12-26T13:56:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum

malam semalam macam malam yang paling teruk bagi aku kot. dealing with people that always have negative judgment about you and they seem dont want to tolerate much.

yeah...after some discussion with all of us, we decided just to banned those irrational people. i dont know why they keep bothering us with their negative comments and responses. if you dont like us, you can go to other people. do we look so weak so you can pick us just to bully us and you really love to see us suffering? no dude, you wont see us suffering and WE ARE NOT WEAK. you and your irrational judgement cant bother us anymore in the future because we will crossed you in our life.

i have been enduring all of your irrational comments and i dont think i can endure it much more so yeah, we will banned you if you make another step of being so negatively sarcastic towards us.

but thank you anyway, you really made us to be more mature to handle this kind of situation. we try to be cool if we face this kind of problem again in the future. thanks a lot dude for the chaos you have created yesterday and it wont happen again because we will banned you

:)

Post 7

2011-12-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum!

sesi merepek kembali lagi :D

hari ni krismas tapi nothing special happened pon except some good shows kat tv lah...hehehe...

tapi hari krismas ni tetiba jadi special sebab kucing aku si comot a.k.a si kenit telah melahirkan anak2 beliau..waaaa ade 4 ekor........betul2 menggantikan 4 ekor anak kucing aku yang mati sebab sakit dan accident :( terima kasih Tuhan sebab menggantikan mereka ber-empat! >.<

so esok pagi nak skudeng anak2 kucing tersebut hihihi...excited tengok anak2 kucing baru lahir sebab mata dorang takleh bukak lagi...hihihi :D

hmm pastu ape lagi nak merepek....

oh ye, laptop dila yang telah diturunkan kepada aku telah punah! :(( ade laptop lama ayah yang aku boleh pakai sekarang tapi still aku prefer laptop lama dila sebab laptop tu skrin dia kaler clear and skrin laptop ayah ni kaler kuning hehehe tapi takpelah, guna jela ape yang ada...tak tau la bila boleh afford nak beli laptop sendiri..asyik pakai second hand hehe....TAPI SAYA BERSYUKUR SAYA MASIH ADA LAPTOP UNTUK BERONLINE....zasss! B-)

tapi esok nak minta tolong ayah repair laptop tu gak sebab aku sayang laptop dila tu T,T

oh okay da habis download show semalam hihihihihihi *gelak nakal*

okay lah, aku nak tengok video kat youtube before tidur..hahaha....mengelat sebab takde idea nak tulis ape kat post ni :D

Post 6

2011-12-24T12:57:00.001+08:00

DONT YOU THINK MY BLOG IS VERY SIMPLE? :D

Post 5

2011-12-24T12:14:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum!

hujan lebat gila di kala aku menulis post ni D:

dan aku tengah radio SSF mase tengah tulis post ni. this radio is in English and basically they talk about *ehem-ehem* :D

okay today i will probably waiting for video streaming if there's any [i hope they are not busy celebrating Christmas Eve right now T_T] and hmmmm.....2 events for today and i hope i can get myself busy about the events :D

i am home alone right now...i dont know what to do at the moment...i think i will just listen to this radio because the DJ talks a lot with cool English accent keke

and im not hungry as i had heavy breakfast so i will have my lunch around 2pm? hohoho i hope my stomach will give a sign when i need to feed myself

oh...i think i did not have a dream about school last night...i was dreaming about something else and i cannot recall about it anymore of course but i feel like it is a good dream :D

what else should i write in this post? i dont know hahaha...i will write so random things like previous post :P

i think i should study today.....but.....yeah, im lazy :D i think i will study MIMS for 1-2 pages like the other day....

hmmm i dont know what to write anymore...so....bye! ma'assalamah!

Post 4

2011-12-23T19:04:00.002+08:00

i think i endure too much until i let myself to explode just now...oh no *gasps*

im still searching for the best concept for this blog...should i make it as a personal blog = a diary? a place to tell everything so i wont keep it inside my heart for a long period? i dont know...still adjusting myself with this blog again...like a new blogger [poyo]

last week i found a cd inside my drawer, "Bacaan Al Quran Bertaranum"...i dont even remember when i bought it...i think when i was a degree student, year 2 i think? maybe -_- im lost LOL!

back then, i have a lot of money i can buy some CDs with my own money but now, no money no cd :)) its okay or else i will buy some non-beneficial things [ehem ehem] B-)

hmm last month, i found out the Koreans released a new kind of smartphones/androids....omg it is so cool but again = no money no new phone :)) so i just let it pass ;D

oh this post is longer than other posts *proud*

hmmm im not a Christian but i feel excited about christmas...i dont know why...maybe because Christmas is equal to snow + good christmas movies + holiday...hahahaha....well i am excited for this coming Christmas because i can watch a lot of cool tv programmes :D hahaha i hope you dont get me wrong..im happy with Christmas because of tv programmes only, not more than that :)

what else to tell? oh, i dont know why do i keep having the same kind of dreams again everynight....the same concept = school + exams + school friends....i miss my student life is it? I DONT KNOW...hahaha i dont know about myself anymore....it is weird! X-(

hmm just now my parents entered to my room...we talked about imran keke...all of us miss him a lot although we met him like 6 days ago? :)) that cute baby will always be in our heart...always keep all of us to be mesmerized with his cuteness >.<

oh about my parents...when we were having our tea time [pisang goreng + teh panas], i kept eating the pisang goreng like i eat popcorn = continuosly munching -_- my parents even let me to finish all of pisang goreng so i said to them,

kama: "mak macam nak bagi kama gemuk je"
emak: "gemok ape nye..."
ayah: kama memang takkan gemok...dilah je senang nak gemok
kama: gelak tak hengat [sebab ayah aku ejek adik aku HAHAHAHA] :P

kelakar pulak mak ayah hari ni..tak tau kenape ;))

hey apesal aku bebel banyak gila lak dalam post ni...nanti nak tulis ape kat post no. 5? X-(

assalamualaikum! :D

Post 3

2011-12-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to write here so i dont know the reason i have to create another new blog :))

i guess im too bored right now :P

i prefer to tweet actually :D

Post 2

2011-12-23T15:15:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum.

Actually this blog is a new blog but im still using the same URL so my old blogger friends can still recognize me and my blog.

haaa im trying to find my old blogger friends back! (>.<)/

Post 1.

2011-12-23T15:12:00.001+08:00

trying to set a new blog, resembling my new life ^^

P/s: 'Hijrah' mode is on i guess